| About 2 weeks ago something amazing happened, I gave myself to Jesus! I cried, and prayed, and questioned whether God exists or not. 2 weeks earlier, I was afraid God would punish me for sins of my past by destroying what I looked like or making me never become married or confining me to a wheel chair. It seems dumb but I was afraid. So I prayed all the time that God wouldn't ever physically harm me. Then something happened and I don't know how, but it just happened. God convicted me. God's master plan involves everybody in the world in some way. Maybe something small, or maybe something big. But it doesn't matter because either way I have to be willing to let God do whatever he wanted so that his master plan would work. God needs to use me in some way, big or small, and I can't be afraid if it means he wants something I don't like, to happen. All my life I believed Jesus as my Saviour. I believed how he died for me. But I didn't FULLY submit myself to him, I didn't surrender ALL. In fact, I didn't surrender anything to Him. But then, God did something amazing, and made me feel terribly guilty to the point where my tears fell like a dripping faucet. To the point where I was loudly whispering out loud to God, "God DO YOU EXIST? YOU DO right? My God YOU DO RIGHT?" Well folks, He most certainly does! But that's something no-one could convince me to believe except for God himself. And He most certainly did. Do you believe God exists? Well that's something I hope you find out the way I did. It was the most Terrifying, awesome, horribly amazing, emotional thing I have ever been through. And in the end, 11:54 PM to be exact, I had TRULY GIVEN MYSELF and EVERYTHING I own, do, speak, think, listen to, touch or whatever I do, I've given it ALL to God. And I finally am 100% sure God exists and am already feeling his warm presence in my heart. My God is awesome, and every part or me is now fully surrendered and I can truly say, "I AM A CHILD OF GOD." AMEN! |
